Hello! It’s currently 6AM as I’m writing this, and I’m now 21!!! Woooo!!! Wow 21 is well certainly a number I guess….

Anyways I figure I be honest and actually talk about how i really felt throughout the year so far. It’s been a bit of a conflicting year for me.

As I’m sure most of you guys know, I switched my major from CS to Animation, or well I tried to kinda lol. I applied to 2 different colleges than the one I was attending for CS, both had decent animation programs, but I had a specific school I wanted to go to out of the two, that was well known for their 3D animation in my state and had good connections with game dev studios in their surrounding areas. I got accepted, and I was planning to move up there to my dorm to attend college. My family was really supportive, however I had my parents convince me to actually stay down here and just be an art major at the college I went to for CS. At first I disagree with this, since unfortunately that college is kinda known in the area for only prioritizing the med school, the art majors hardly get any funding compared to the med students, plus I felt that the program was lacking what I needed in order to have a good career. Plus it definitely leaned more to the traditional route for art rather 3D. But, my dad offered me to pay for my college since he said the tuition is cheaper and that I wouldn’t have to take student loans, compared to me doing that to attend that college I wanted to go. Well unfortunately that promise never happened. I was swayed too easily, so I signed up to be an illustration and graphic design major while ditching the college I wanted to go to. I’m in no way blaming my family, I’m actually really lucky that I’m still offered a place to stay here, but I will admit I feel a bit saddened that my dad made a promise and never delivered on it. So I took out loans just to keep attending the college I’m currently at now. The program is ok, but there are definitely moments where I’m like “Do i really need to make an collage? Am I truly learning anything” and add in my Apraxia, which affects my motor skills, being a truly terrible combo for my traditional drawing class.

However I have made some pretty good friends in these classes which has definitely helped out a bit, but a part of me does regret staying down here. Since my area offers little growth in terms of jobs. And, I love my family don’t get me wrong but overtime I can see that I do need to move out pretty soon. Some major things have happened in the past with my immediate family, so it has made things tense at home for going on about 4 or 5 years now. If things go well I’m hoping I can leave as soon as I graduate which should take 2-3 years if I stay down here.

However not all things are doom and Gloom, I feel that this has been a great year for me creative wise. I made Music for limbless and that project went very well, that we even scored 2nd place for Audio in a game jam with the music I made. I think that’s pretty good considering I’m more of an artist than musician.

But the major thing is that I was able to be part of a magazine!!! Not only once but twice! Which is fucking insane!!! The first time was for an indie press company, called the Quarter press, i submitted my art for their W3IRD edition Vol 2, and my old Giygas pixel art piece got selected. Which is incredibly funny that my Earthbound fanart is now in a printed magazine lol.

And just recently I got my art published in a digital Magazine that’s near my local area, called BLANK, for their 014 issue. Here’s the link if you want to read the full thing online.

Im in absolute awe seeing my work get published especially since I’ve been feeling pretty down about my art lately. Probably has to do with me getting picked on a bit in my drawing class lol. But regardless family and personal shit has been weird, but I think creative wise it’s been somewhat decent.

Im hoping I’ll keep this momentum going while I’m finishing up school, so that I can hopefully get a decent job after I graduate soon. :/

But yeah that’s how I been. Kinda lackluster Birthday to be honest.